My dear friend Laura had surgery on her lung this week. I was visiting her in the hospital and all the memories of my last visit to the hospital flooded my mind. As I sat next to my precious friend wondering why God would allow her to walk trough such a painful and slow recovering surgery He brought to my mind how very blessed Laura and I are to be in America with wonderful doctors and procedures that can take care of us.
I know that in the midst of our personal storm it is hard to sing Gods praises... but I have a friend who has taught me by example that life it not always fair...but we serve a good God who is Faithful and True and does sing Gods praises in all situations. It was His sovereign choice not to heal her with out the help of Dr intervention...but she is clinging to his promise that He is with her and has sent the Holy Spirit to be her comfort and peace giver. I am truly blessed to be Laura's friend, to be a witness to the great things that God is doing in her life!
Laura, I love you and am believing that He who is able will accomplish His perfect will in your life!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Sunday, April 6, 2008
good grief...
Today I have had moments of deep grief. I would have thought that 8 weeks out I would not hurt as deeply as I still do. The Lord is working in my life, but I still live in a fallen world where I struggle with allowing worldy passions to control me... and letting go of my anger and hurt is one of them. Now, I don't think that hurting is wrong, but allowing that hurt dictate my day is wrong. I am not being Spirit controlled but allowing my grief, anger,or hurt to run my day from time to time.
I so want the Lord's will and to fully surrender to the Potter's hands.. this is something that I can not do in myself...so I am asking for the Empowering of the Holy Spirit. So that I can be an overcomer and tell of the glorious and marverlous thing's my Father has done in my life.
I so want the Lord's will and to fully surrender to the Potter's hands.. this is something that I can not do in myself...so I am asking for the Empowering of the Holy Spirit. So that I can be an overcomer and tell of the glorious and marverlous thing's my Father has done in my life.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
April 1
I was so excited this morning that we were able to turn the calendar over!
I am making it through this storm... Thank you Heavenly Father for being so faithful and providing all that I have need of. You are a Great God. Worthy of of all my praise.
I am sure reading this blog could start to get redundant after a while, but I so long for the world to know what a Great and Mighty God I serve... this is where I feel most free to express what great things He has done for me and my family! So read on and see that He is faithful and will accomplish His will in my family's and my life!
May His grace surround you heart this day... may the light of His truth shine upon you!
I am making it through this storm... Thank you Heavenly Father for being so faithful and providing all that I have need of. You are a Great God. Worthy of of all my praise.
I am sure reading this blog could start to get redundant after a while, but I so long for the world to know what a Great and Mighty God I serve... this is where I feel most free to express what great things He has done for me and my family! So read on and see that He is faithful and will accomplish His will in my family's and my life!
May His grace surround you heart this day... may the light of His truth shine upon you!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Do I really believe?
I have had it asked do I really believe what I write... Yes I do. Beyond a shadow of a doubt in my heart I believe that God is good and that He is Faithful and True. No, I do not understand His ways...but I trust that His ways are always best.
Romans 11 :33- 36 wonderfully describes Gods ways and that I will bring Him honor in all things at all times!
Romans 11: 33-36
Oh the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable His judgements, and His paths beyond tracing out! Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been His counselor? Who has ever given to God, that God should repay him? For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. To Him be the glory forever! Amen!
May this passage of Gods Holy Word transform your lives.... For HE is Worthy of all our praise!
Romans 11 :33- 36 wonderfully describes Gods ways and that I will bring Him honor in all things at all times!
Romans 11: 33-36
Oh the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable His judgements, and His paths beyond tracing out! Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been His counselor? Who has ever given to God, that God should repay him? For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. To Him be the glory forever! Amen!
May this passage of Gods Holy Word transform your lives.... For HE is Worthy of all our praise!
Friday, March 21, 2008
6 Weeks
It has been 6 weeks since I found out that my son had died.
Six weeks seems like an eternity at some moments, but at others I feel as though it was yesterday.
I still have moments of grief and deep sorrow but what a comfort to see my Savior turn my mourning into dancing! He has given me back my joy and placed in me hope. Hope is a beautiful thing. Hope that comes from Jesus never disappoints!
I am singing His praises in the midst of this storm.
Last night I was reading journal entry's from the week immediately after my miscarriage. In my journal I was crying out to my Father to restore me, to heal me and to be my sustainer through the this trial of life!
He has been so faithful. My joy and laughter have returned, I can see His joy bubbling in my life and I am so thankful. He has healed my body fully, He has mended my broken heart. My Heavenly Father has also healed Layne's heart and I am so grateful. My Lord has truly been my Sustainer. He is my All! and I boldly proclaim the great things that He has done for me and I am filled with joy!
Lamentations 3:22- 26 sums up my praises
Because of the Lords great love we are not consumed, for His compassion never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
Six weeks seems like an eternity at some moments, but at others I feel as though it was yesterday.
I still have moments of grief and deep sorrow but what a comfort to see my Savior turn my mourning into dancing! He has given me back my joy and placed in me hope. Hope is a beautiful thing. Hope that comes from Jesus never disappoints!
I am singing His praises in the midst of this storm.
Last night I was reading journal entry's from the week immediately after my miscarriage. In my journal I was crying out to my Father to restore me, to heal me and to be my sustainer through the this trial of life!
He has been so faithful. My joy and laughter have returned, I can see His joy bubbling in my life and I am so thankful. He has healed my body fully, He has mended my broken heart. My Heavenly Father has also healed Layne's heart and I am so grateful. My Lord has truly been my Sustainer. He is my All! and I boldly proclaim the great things that He has done for me and I am filled with joy!
Lamentations 3:22- 26 sums up my praises
Because of the Lords great love we are not consumed, for His compassion never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
Friday, March 7, 2008
fires of sorrow
...sin, sorrow and suffering are, and it is not for us to say that God has made a mistake allowing them. Sorrow removes a great deal of a persons shallowness,but it does not always make that person better. Suffering either gives me to myself, ot it destroys me. You can not find or recieve yourself through success, because you lose your head in pride. And you cannot recieve yourself through the monotony of daily life, because you have give in to complaining. The only way to find your self is through the fires of sorrow. Why should it be this immaterial. The fact is that it is true in the Scriptures and in human experience. You can always recognize who has been through the fires of sorrow and recieved himself, and you know that you can go to him in your moment of trouble and find that he has plenty of time for you. But if a person has not been through the fires of sorrow, he is apt to be contemptous, having no respect or time for you, only turning you away.
written by Oswald Chambers
To those who have walked along side me through this firey storm.... from the bottom of my heart I thank you. Thank you for allowing me to cry, to grieve and mourn. You are treasures in my heart and in the Kingdom of God.
Thank you to my fellow mommies with a Little on in heaven who have shared their stories of loss and hope. You have lived out before my eyes 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of all compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our times of troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have recieved from God."
My life will forever be blessed because you cared enough to comfort.
written by Oswald Chambers
To those who have walked along side me through this firey storm.... from the bottom of my heart I thank you. Thank you for allowing me to cry, to grieve and mourn. You are treasures in my heart and in the Kingdom of God.
Thank you to my fellow mommies with a Little on in heaven who have shared their stories of loss and hope. You have lived out before my eyes 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of all compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our times of troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have recieved from God."
My life will forever be blessed because you cared enough to comfort.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Disappointment
I found this poem and felt that it was quite fitting for a time such as this.
Disappointment
By Phil Keagy
Disappointment- HIS appointment, change one letter,
Then I see, that the thwarting of my purpose
is God's better choice for me.
His appointment must be a blessing,
though it may come in disguise,
For the end from the beginning, open His wisdom lies.
Disappoint-His appointment, whose?
The Lord who loves me best,
Understands and knows me fully,
Who my faith and love would test.
For like a loving, earthly parent,
He rejoices when He knows,
That His child accepts unquestioned
all that from His wisdom flows.
Disappointment-His appointment,
Lord I take it then as such,
Like clay in the hands of the potter
Yeilding wholly to thy touch.
All my life's plan is thy molding,
Not one single choice is mine,
Let me answer unrepining
Father not my will but Thine.
Disappointment
By Phil Keagy
Disappointment- HIS appointment, change one letter,
Then I see, that the thwarting of my purpose
is God's better choice for me.
His appointment must be a blessing,
though it may come in disguise,
For the end from the beginning, open His wisdom lies.
Disappoint-His appointment, whose?
The Lord who loves me best,
Understands and knows me fully,
Who my faith and love would test.
For like a loving, earthly parent,
He rejoices when He knows,
That His child accepts unquestioned
all that from His wisdom flows.
Disappointment-His appointment,
Lord I take it then as such,
Like clay in the hands of the potter
Yeilding wholly to thy touch.
All my life's plan is thy molding,
Not one single choice is mine,
Let me answer unrepining
Father not my will but Thine.
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