you were should have been here!

Nicholas,
Today was your due date and you should have been here! You should have been sung Twinkle Twinkle by your sisters, you should be have been gently rocked by your daddy, you should have been in my arms!!!
You are not and today I am very saddened by that fact... I know where you are and Who holds you... but I am a little jealous...I wanted to be your mom, rock you, tell you stories, and to smell your sweet baby smell!!! And today I mourn my loss, but celebrate your little life and how wonderful our short time with you was and how many other lives were blessed and bettered in your passing!
We think about you everyday Little One and miss you dearly!


from you mom

Due date

Nicholas' due date was this weekend... I feel that I have been sucker punched by the loss of Jeff's job and my due date falling all in the same week... a week of disappointments yet there is such great hope.... Hope that does not disappoint!
I love you my sweet boy!